je veux juste une derniere danse

"Tomorrow is not promise, but today is mine." I read that in an Essence magazine. The most recent issue I think...not to say that the quote pertains to my message to Lily. I just really liked this take on "Live like there's no tomorrow." You know?

As I sit here typing this out...deleting, retyping, rethinking punctuations...I wish that this doubt, this second guessing will not plague dearest Llyllan during her MCAT.

As I sit here in the dark--looking at my bright screen, looking at the dark kitchen, dark stairwell, dark Annie, dark etc--I wish nothing but enlightenment for every question that our bestest Llyllan encounters on the MCAT.

As I sit here in listening to Annie crunching on a salad lettuce despite its lack of fat and flavor, I wish our lovely Llyllan the same impermeable perserverance through this MCAT.

As I sit here and then as I am running to the different windows to spy on our neighbors with Annie, I wish that our wonderful Llyllan be able to see the many ways she is able to execute the MCAT queries.

As I sit here thinking about tomorrow, yesterday, and now, I wish that our admirable Llyllan remember everything relevant to the MCAT from tomorrow, yesterday, now...and any other days necessary.

As I sit here wondering what to wish next to Llyllan without worry of consuming my time, I wish our prevailing Llyllan the comfort of efficiency to ensure she flows through the MCAT.

I usually don't type using CAPS, but I thought it was a special enough occassion seeing as how Lily is smoking her way into the medical world.

WE'RE ALL PROUD OF YOU LILYYYYYYYYYYY!!

so...this is in honor of lily. i'm finally HIRED! at victoria secrets. come visit me at the tucson mall.

i think i've found a home...actually, paulino found it. i still don't have a job; after getting fired from dazzle it's been hard. i do have an interview tomorrow. or saturday...that's right, today isn't friday.

sometimes i feel like it won't stop raining.

so one of the three care packages that my mom sent me came yesterday and in it i found a plethora of goodies! however, there were the underwear. for some reason they were called low rise--i'm guessing because their elastic band only grazes my navel rather than hug my rib cage. anyway, i started thinking about underwear this morning around 2am-ish, and i realized that i don't like briefs or thongs...granted, thongs have good intentions. but if the road to hell is paved with good intentions, then this eternal infernal must host thongs along its pathway along with other things like TAs...

i got into ubrp..the undergraduate biology research program. so, i will be spending my summer in az as opposed to northern ca. most excellent. i'll be able to see all of you! and in the spirit of saint valentine's, i shall make a list of how i define such glorious day:

10. i made a depressing/humourous playlist that includes "tous les garcons et les filles" (i recommend that one, actually) and "i'm gonna make you love me" that i listened to all day long--including the torture that is g-chem
9. i looked at some nasty "old" heffas wearin some ugly dresses and started singing "ho" by ludacris
8. i only smiled at the guy that i have a huge crush on (for the wrong reasons...)
7. i spent my urology lab time staring at a girl (?) that had a bleached mustache and goatee (hurray for being a medical student!)
6. i rode the cat tran with another cute guy...and only talked about the painful things that i do to penises--mice penises, of course
5. i went to eat lunch with vajillian--this one's actually good.
4. i found out paulino is really going to boston university, so now i've got to break his legs
3. i drove crazy yue to find a place willing to take her late plea for a wax appointment
2. i ate tons of junk food with annie and hymonty in a public place (people were staring...) as we talked about...well, pleasure ^^
1. i went to the foothills and saw the sunset over the city where 2-10 happened, and then i went inside and watched a very not funny episode of "friends" with paulino and yue--this one was good, too

these things aren't in chronological order, but i think it's better that way, otherwise my valentine's day would have sucked...more. hurray for thursday. i have an interview at GUESS? hurray, once more, for thursday. i'm going to club and dance until the break of dawn.

i haven't broken resolutions in a long time, mainly because i haven't made any. this year is going to be different; it' going to be filled with different people and exciting opportunities with less trashy tv.

THUS:

1. talk less to self and more to others
2. quit the black ops (it's taking up too much of my life)
3. get real As
4. direct a heist
5. buy an outfit that looks like the ones the "painters" wore from "inside man"
6. be more sensitive towards people's feelings
7. and then kill them.
8. stop joking so much
9. cease talking about my life as a terrorist...job #43 will never happen
10. create a team to help my plot against the uofa monopoly


so let it be written, so let it be done!

so i have a myghetto now from myghetto.com

hilarious, i tell you. under ethniity they have the option of "mixed" ...greatness, i say!

the wind, she blows.
...when the winds blow with fury, your next day will be as fruitful as madam curie's...

you could avoid this by making a wish while hoping on one foot without stepping on a crack and throwing some salt over your shoulder. for extra luck, lean wit it, rock with it.


it is very windy here, though. and rainy. i haven't exeprienced different weather in a minute. lily, i read the comments from the students--greatness. there was one that was really funny

"94, 90, 80, 64: I guess I should've kept going to class during the second half of the semester. Either that or I should have brought my pepper spray to the final to keep it from raping me."

pure, unadulterated gold. haha!

i hate chemistry lab. i was thinking about becoming a terrorist, but, as i've discussed with a few of my peers, you need too much chemistry plus two minors...additionally, jack bauer would take me down, and i would die.

so posted day 1 of my attempt at this undergraduate biology research program thing some time ago, and i honestly haven't done much more from that day...i'm doing independent research spring semester, but that really doesn't have anything to do with ubrp...

...dr. sanjay ramakumar is leaving to start his own private practice; unfortunate, yo se, but that's the way it is...the good ones want to spread their wings and practice urology elsewhere...

i've already started making plans for this program this summer like i've gotten accepted (i've been telling my parents not to expect me back home), so...ya.

basically i have the application out, and i'm staring at it. fortunately, hardeep will be helping me with it. he has been helping me with everything, like letters of rec, school schedule, mess like that...

on a more interesting note, i...actually, i lied there is nothing interesting. sad, yes, i know.

hi lyllyan! see you january! o yes, i thank God for curves, too, and yes 20+ hours was not enough to do well on the g chem final but i still managed...and about that guessing thing: sapakie's class taught me that i better know the answer because guessing would get me no where (from when we did that multiple choice thing where he was like just put down a-d randomly).

so, i've decided that for the coming year, i will be sure to have something more interesting to do for new year's eve...


...well, that and a few other things.